Tuesday, March 08, 2005

05-27-04 Wipe Out

This is why I think we need to wipe out at least half the world
Here I am, sitting a home, watching the news, watching this crap about the stupid shit happening over in Iraq, getting all pissed off, when the news when off on another subject about these women who were kidnapped when they were young and were told to become sex slaves.

What the fuck goes through these people's mind? What motivates these people who are so insecure about themselves that they have to go around, kidnapping younger people, rape them, make them into their sex slaves, keep them in these "dungeons" away from reality, telling them that they are "cops" and that they must do what they say otherwise they will kill their family? What the fuck? Is humanity this so fucked up that these crazy ass people have to go and molest these children for their own pleasures?

Now, this is what I'd do to every last one of these low life mother fuckers.
1) Find each and everyone of them. Leave no house unturned. Have a full scale search for these people.
2) Build a large jail center where the most criminal offenders are kept.
3) Throw these child molesters, and rapist into the center of this jail without any clothes. I mean, naked.
4) Then let those inmates go at it, and let them have what they want; some ass to fuck.
Hey! No body said it had to be a female that they had to fuck. All they want would be a hole, and that's it.
5) The first one to break all of those child molesters, and rapist into their bitches would be set free to have a home of their own where they could take all of those that he/she fucked to their place to do whatever he/she wanted.

Sounds like a plan to me.

Then, I'd get all of our us troops out of Iraq, and turn that place into the newest black hole, just lay that place flat with a nuke or a several missiles.

04-18-04 These people who don't live here in California

Okay, I made a rant the last time stating the obvious facts about driving in California, but shortly after writing it, more shit came to mind as I had more assholes cut me off driving home that night.

Now when I drive, I not only watch the assholes in front and behind me, but I'm starting to check different license plates and notice a whole shit load of people who drive in California who don't quite live here, or at least who don't have their cars registered with California. Now, I can understand people from other states driving around, visiting relatives, doing their own things, but when I start seeing license plates from the other side of the country, I begin to look at their windows to make sure they aren't military family. If they are, I don't care, but if they don't, then I get a little suspicious and wonder if they are just traveling or living in California without having to pay for the shit we pay for while living in California.

So here is the deal, I find your ass from another state without the military tags on front of your car, I will take notes of your license plate as pass it on to the CHP (California Highway Patrol) to check their data base to see how long you have been sitting in California and to see if you are not paying your damn dues to the state. If you haven't done so already, I suggest you drive your ass to the local DMV, and get that shit cleared up, otherwise someone like me will find your ass, ticket it to the CHP, have them at your door step to arrest you, and possible impound your vehicle. But that is up the CHP to decide on what to do with your lame ass. You cheating sons of bithces. And if you find this offensive, then grow up, stop whining like the little bitch you are, act like an adult, and talk to me, tell me your problem and I will fix it. Nothing will be done if nobody says anything.

Also, if you read the header of this page, then you should already understand that this page is to allow people, like me, to have my opinions, and to publish it for others to read. No one told you to come here and read it just to get mad over it. No one ever held a gun to your stupid head to force you to read this. Now log off, eat that cheese burger, drink that soda, and have a nice fucking day. Your lord and master, Foamy.

04-18-04 Driving in California & Modified Cars

Driving in San Diego, California.
It's no wonder why California has one of the highest insurance rates around, there too many people driving around that shouldn't be.

If you are sleepy, and you know you are tired, then find a place to stop, take a break, and sleep in your car. Napping for 30 minutes can do you a world of good. Don't drive, fall asleep behind the wheel, and kill innocent people just because you told the officer that you were "taking a light nap" or you "had one eye open". That doesn't work, and you end up hurting other people. Afterwards, expect your license to be taking away.

People on their cell phones while driving should have their license suspended. This one bugs me the most. I do not understand spending hours on the phone talking to your "love one" that you just got done talking to for the past 5 hours too, then to be on the phone and still be talking to that person. What is so important, that you need to be on the phone while driving? Tell me. I really would like someone to tell me. Here is my e-mail: bagao001@csusm.edu. I want to hear what you have to say. This another quick way to get into an accident if you are not paying attention to the road. I've seen it many times where people are in a hurry, are on the phone trying to tell their boss that they will be late, crossing 3 lanes over the I-15, not looking around, and just cutting people off left and right. This causes everybody else to slow down, and other people to slam on their breaks. Now, if I was the one giving the driver's license test, the instant a cell phone rings while I am directing the student to drive, I'd fail that person on the spot without even telling him/her failed till the end of the exam. Yes, deal. Let the phone ring while you are driving. If it is that important, put on your emergency lights on, pull over to the side of the road, come to a stop, put the car in park, and talk as much as you want. Afterwards, hang up your phone, turn off your emergency lights, signal to others that you are getting back onto the road, and merge safely. It's that simple.

People who don't use their signal lights should also be warn. I have an itch to follow someone home, take a bat, and break their tail lights. I'm just waiting for the dumb ass to do so. At least give me the courtesy of a signal before you make your turn into Burger King or whatever. Again, it's simple. If you don't know how to use or what the blinkers are on your car, have someone drive you and your car back to the dealers, give them back the keys to the car, and get a ride home on the bus because you are too stupid to own a car. Also, watch out for pedestrians walking on the road. No matter what, if you see someone walking on the road, they have the right of way. So wait for them to pass your car. Technically, you have to wait for that person to be completely off the road before you can make any kind of turn. You hit them, they or their families can file you ass for driving down pedestrians. This is not a game.

The whole age thing. People under the age of 18, wait till you can drive. Some of you can't even reach the pedals yet. Get Mommy or Daddy to drive you. Otherwise, take that the bus, or walk you lazy butt. People 18+, don't think your "cool" just because you are now driving Daddy's or Mommy's Mercedes. You don't own it, you are not paying for the insurance to drive it, you don't pay for the gas on it, you don't maintain it. if you crash it, expect a very LONG talk from Daddy or Mommy the next day, and watch your insurance on that car go up the roof. Now, if you pay for all that for yourself, more power to you. Just remember, every single person you have in that car, you are responsible for. So if Jimmy or Ted got a broken bone, expect to pay for their medical bills. If Jenny or Lisa died in your car, you are the sole person responsible for their death, and expect a bill from the family for the funeral, and possibly a lawsuit on you ass for driving reckless and endangerment. People over the age of 50 years old should be tested every 6 months to make sure they know how to drive properly. People over the age of 60 years old should be tested every 4 months to make sure they remember how to drive. People who are 70+ years old, need to be tested every month, to make sure they can still see over the steering wheel, not though the steering wheel, and reach the break pedals. We need to make sure they don't run us down while walking though a cross walk.

Driving in the rain. I guess it's because we don't get enough rain out here is why most people can't drive in the rain. Because the moment a couple drops of water hits their windshield, people start applying their breaks from 65 to 35 mph. I hate it. Especially when I'm in the far left lane, expecting to go a little faster than 65 mph, is where people will slow down the most. Move over to the next lane, and let others pass.

If you see more than 3 cars tailing behind you, speed up, pass the car in the right lane, and move over. You are just causing everyone to slow down, and pissing off a lot of people like me. If you are going to be driving 65 mph, drive in the far right lane, or in the middle lane. Not on the far left lane. Same goes for those trucks. I hate coming up a back of a truck with shit ready to fall out while in the fast lanes. Or cars that that have tow hitches on the back going faster than 55 mph. The same can be said for the moving trucks that travel at 80 mph. Stupid people. I'm just waiting to watch one of those get creamed over a wall or over a bridge in a giant bon fire.

SUVs were design for carrying large payloads while carrying a large number of people. Nowadays, I see giant SUVs carrying a group of little kids to their soccer games. "Soccer Moms". Get a Van, they hold more, and are more spacious than a SUVs. And you can see the through the front of your car better. Trucks were design to carry loads in the back. Nowadays I see people convert it into a bed of speakers. Oh wow, a whole lot of nothing. Together the SUV and these large Trucks are crappy. It bugs the shit out of me to find either of these cars that are 5 feet off the ground, that require a step ladder to climb into, and is driven by a 5'2" little lady inside that can barely see over the hood of the truck. Great, not only can they not see the car stop in front of them, but when they drive at night they have head lights that blind everyone. I hope that their comes a law that bands people from having too tall of a vehicle. The heights for a SUV, Truck, or Van should be under the 8' limit. Most garages are not design to have anything beyond 6'. So why bother raising your vehicle to height higher than you garage. Fine by me if you precious car is out in the rain.

Head lights. Don't use your high beams while driving in the fog. If you remember in your driver's ed class, driving with the high beams on is illegal, and it really doesn't help you when driving though a thick fog. They are only good when driving though the mountains on those curvy road paths, or off road tracks. Otherwise, don't use them in normal street roads.

Modified Cars
I can say I'm a car fanatic, and I particularly like import (Japanese) cars. I like looking at modified cars that "looks" good and "sound" good.
By "looks" I mean, it is clean.
- Not that half ass job that I see every time I walk to though a parking lot at the local grocery store. It looks really ugly when I see colors that don't match. Neon green is not in, nor is any neon color for that fact. Or when you can clearly see a bumper or two that doesn't match the style of the car.
- Oh those damn lights. I better see those lights turn red when you hit the break pedal. Not that pink color or white for that matter. The same can go for those front head lights. I better not be seeing "blue" lights in my rear view mirror, otherwise expect me to slow down, watch you drive by, as I take down your license plate, and hand that over to the local police department. It's very illegal to modify you head lights and tails lights that are not regulated lights. Turn signals don't bother me, just as long as you use them, and I can clearly see it from the front and from the back. Another one are those "fog lights". There is a reason for them being called "Fog Lights", it's there for you to see the roads during times it is "foggy". If you can't see at night, then I suggest you talk with you optometrist. It's annoying to see cars in the rear view mirror with like 10 headlights on. Otherwise don't drive at night. Make it a point to drive during the day.
- Spoilers...oh boy, we have many winners here. It bugs me to see "counter top" on the back end of a car. What the hell are you trying to do? Fly? Unless you are driving above the speeds of 180+ mph, those spoilers aren't going to do much to your "performance". Those little Honda Civics can't go over 120 mph without doing heavy modifications. Besides, you shouldn't be driving those speeds, and if you are I hope you get caught. Do it on a real race track, so you don't take innocent people with you when you biff out in your car. Now, there are some spoilers that are design for "lower wind" resistance or to "keep your car on the road" but that requires a lot of time and research to find the right one for you car.
- Tires are good. They are design to help stabilize your car during turns, and to give traction control to your car. But those rims that give you 1 inch of rubber is not going to help you when you hit a speed bump, and dent those $500 custom rims. Especially on SUVs. I don't know why you need 25" rims with a 2" tire on it. Maybe you can enlighten me as to why people do this. Also, it bugs me to see wheels that hang outside the car. You know the ones I'm talking about. The one that Juan drives with the Mexican girl-band playing in his car. What is the point of having your wheel so far out your car? I know its a style, but lets get away from the stereotypes, okay mi amigo. Get wheels that can fit in your car's wheel base.
- Suspensions are good. But they're useless if you have to tell your friends to get out of the car, and have them push the car over the 1" bump on the road, then its quite useless. If you are going to lower you car, lower it so at least it is drivable. I always laugh to see cars that have to go at a angle getting over speed bumps and watch them get scratched. Otherwise, if you are so hung up about the height of you car off the ground, save your cash, and get hydraulic suspensions. That way you can adjust the ride height at anytime, and anywhere.
- TV for your cars. I don't understand why people want to have the most number or LCD screens in their cars. Why don't you spend that money on getting a plasma screen at home to watch. If you have kids, give them a deck of cards to play with or a CD player to listen to while they are in the back seats. They don't need to watch that 30 minutes of Finding Nemo as you go from the grocery story and back home. Have you kid to something else other that watching TV as you drive. Now, if you are driving to a place like Las Vegas, that I can understand having an LCD in the car. I think their should be a law stating that you cannot have any kind of screens installed onto any part of the dash that is visible to the driver that doesn't show anything that is not important to the driver. You don't need to be watching the news in you car while driving. Listen to the radio for that. You don't need to be watching Britney Spear's music video while you are driving. Listen to the CD for that.
- Speakers are great when you have 4 - 6 speakers in you car. But what's up with the giant 20" speakers in the trunk of your car? You took the time to buy 300 watt speakers in the back of your car, at the cost of removing your spare wheel. Now, what are you going to do when you get a flat tire or two? I hope your insurance covers having a tow truck take your car to the local shop to get that fix. That's a nice bill to receive after spending hundreds of dollars to install those beautiful speakers that did absolutely nothing for you. Otherwise, I hope you know some friends that can help you out 2 AM in the morning to come out and save your ass. Don't expect me to do so. I'm an heavy sleeper, and I will sleep though your call.
- Their is a reason for those chairs and seat belts, use them. If you plan to tear out the interior of your car, go to the shop, and get it done the right way. Otherwise, get a bunch of your friends to help you out. It is not an easy task to do. Those 5-point seatbelts are not going to help you when you are stuck upside down, with nobody to help you, and when your car is on fire. Get ones that are easy to come apart but still work, or stick to the standard seatbelts. Buckle up, it's not that hard. Otherwise, it's your life. If you are expecting to drive your girl and some friends around, leave the cover on to the back seats of the car. It bugs the shit out of me hearing the noise of your crappy ass muffler as it gets louder the further you drive.
- Speaking of mufflers and exhaust, get ones that works. There is absolutely no point on installing a muffler at the end of your car that sticks out 3 feet. It's not "cool" nor will the cops think it's legal. Also, you really don't need no more than 2 exhausts on your little Honda Civics. Now cars like the Toyota Supra, or the Mitsubishi 3000GT are capable to have more than 2 exhausts pipes. Otherwise, it's just a waste of money. Also, adding chrome tips to the exhaust doesn't help in anyway to the performance of you car, nor does it look good.
- Stickers and paint jobs are another thing I see in import cars. If you are going to be spending money and time on a custom paint job, at least get one that looks clean. And if you are going to put a custom decal on the front of your car or side of your car, have a picture of something that either appealing or controversial, like a penis. Otherwise, paint the front of your car red, the middle and back of the car white, and tie a rope at the end of the car. That will get some attention to your car. Stickers are cool, but putting on a Lexus badge on a Ford car is not cool. Or putting on a 2.5 Litter badge on the back of your car when you know your engine is no bigger than 1.6 litters. Another one is when I see "Type-R" badges on cars that hasn't earned the badge to put one on.
- Back to the lights thing. Installing lights underneath your car to give it that glow under the car is alright in my book. But it only flies with good looking cars. Otherwise it is a waist of time installing lights that will break when you hit that speed bump, or it gets wet during the rain. Now that's fun when people install lights and don't water proof them, and watch their car get a short circuit as they drive in the rain or though a puddle of water.
- Turbo chargers, and super chargers are a good add on to your car's performance. They're good investments if you have them installed properly. NOS is for those whimps who don't have real power under their hoods. NOS only puts your car to an early grave if your not careful. All that NOS does is give you that first 10 second edge over the next car. Otherwise, I'll beat you over the highway speeds. Again, NOS is illegal. You can have your car impounded on the spot, and be fine for illegal modifications for your car. Not to mention the bill for your car being towed, and it being stored at the local impound center. By then, I hope you can find your car. Most places will give you the "run around" as you try to find you car. It's meant to drive people away from having those modification done to their cars.
- Oh wow....look at the pretty flames. Very illegal to have. Thanks to the makers of 2 Fast 2 Furious and other movies like so, had modified their cars "stunt cars" with flames that shot out from the exhaust pipes. Great for movies, but bad for real life situations. You don't want your car catching on fire while driving up to McDonalds. Cops don't take it lightly either.
- Disk breaks are great. But you don't need to have chromed out disk breaks since they will only get scratched as you drive and stop. Its a nice upgrade from stock drum breaks. But get ones that work.
- Break pads help you stop. But having them painted with funky colors don't help you stop at a light. If you are going to paint them, do it right. Take them out, and have them painted the right way.
- Steering wheels are their to help you turn the damn car. Get ones that you can turn with both hands. Not those race car steering wheels. They don't help you when you are in a panic of avoiding the idiot in front of you.

By "sound" I mean, I can hear and feel the power of the engine.
It bugs me when I hear a law mower driving by at 75 mph. Or even just driving though the parking lot, I hear this little import car, driving all loud, with the engine sounding like it is struggling up a hill going 10 mph in front of K-Mart. All noise but no power. Sometimes I hear this farting noise. Great, now you car really blows ass. The "sound" that makes my skin crawl with excitement is the kind of sound I look for. Not the kind of "sound" that makes me puke or laugh. I should be hearing more of the engine's raw power, rather than just air coming out of the exhaust pipes. Blow out from the turbo is nice to hear, but again, that shouldn't overkill the noise of the engine or the exhaust pipe. The real power is from the engine, not from the exhaust pipes.

Do what you want to do. If it makes you happy the way your car is, don't let me stop you from what you do to your car, as long as YOU are happy with the results of your car. Don't do anything to it that you "think" is cool, because it has already been done before. If you can make your car fly, great. Show it off. It's better when I find cars where the owner loves the car to death, has put the time and commitment into fixing his/her car, iis where I find the best cars.

Do your homework before doing any modification to you car. Make sure the modifications are legal. Cops are towing cars that they find with illegal modifications. They will ask you to pop open you hood if they feel like it. What's legal? Stock. Some minor engine and small body works will pass. Modifying a car doesn't come cheap, even when it comes from a friend. It still costs money, and time.
Personally, I'd like to put more of that money and time on a house that I can say is mine. I don't plan to live in my car. It's fun to see where these import cars go to. Sometime I find 30 year old men living at their Mom's 1 floor house with the car looking a lot better than the house.

12-10-2003 Adult Swim is Wussified.

Going back to remembering when Adult Swim was new, remember all the controversy that came along with it? I remember when parents were all up in it and complaining about how to the contents were going to scar America's children! What ever happened to that edgy cheesy goodness? None of the original Adult Swim shows were as good in their second seasons, and that's with the exception of some of the Oblongs episodes.
Cowboy Bebop is all fine and well, but if Adult Swim had the rocks it had when it began, they would have shown the Bebop movie on Halloween night. Now, THAT is well adjusting.
Shows on network television say and do worse things than this cable network during the same time slot... and even earlier, before the kiddies have gone to bed *gasp* They even show blood!
I hope in the next year I can be proven wrong. I would like to see things that AREN'T popular and might be thought provoking without being afraid of the repurcissions.
Bebop and Trigun are too overhyped, all the real otaku got over it years ago. Bring out something different, more FLCL type things. No, not Evangelion. Evangelion has already saturated and tainted a good portion of the anime population. Bring me Saishuuheiki Kanojo (She, the Ultimate Weapon), Fist of the North Star Movie, His and Her Circumstances, or even something like Chobits and Hand Maid May for all the geeks like me.
Having something not licensed in the United States is NO excuse. I'm SURE an AOL Time Warner company that helped get the second season of Big O and possibly Ghost in the Shell Stand Alone Complex made just for us can surely get a few bucks together to bring decent stuff over the pond.

Why I'll never run an Anime Website

t's been a while since I've written a rant, but this is something that has really gotten my blood boiling as Nuriko and I were perusing different websites....

...and once again the Anime community has sickened and appalled me.


In the last three hours, I have visited about 30 or so anime-related websites, and the vast majority of them "borrowed" images from our image gallery. Now this is of no surprise, as this is why Nuriko spends hour after hour each day scanning, fixing and posting images in our gallery, so that you, the visitor, can use them for your anime projects, desktops or to just print out for your general enjoyment as most individuals just don't have the means or the funds to drive 2 hours (or longer depending on your location) to Los Angeles and buy virtually every back issue, current issue and special release of every Japanese Magazine (where 90% of the images come from) available.


...What pisses me off, is that once again a bunch of punk-ass infantile dipshits have yet again taken images and claimed that THEY were the ones who scanned them, fixed them and "worked really hard" to get these images.


Screw you.


Upon my continued conversations with Nuriko, we had a problem with this pretty much a the same time LAST YEAR, where nearly 50 websites thought they were slick enough to pull the wool over people's eye's and claim that it was them who made it possible for these images to be available on the web... during my visits to these websites, I experienced a sense of deja vu as I read disclaimer after disclaimer of "Do not remove the watermark from our wallpapers" or "Please don't take our images"...


...punk-ass bitches.


Getting back to the title of this rant. This exact bullshit is the one very reason that I will NEVER ever run an anime website, or incorporate anime material in my website. It is because there are so many teenage and early twenty-something fucks like these punk bitches (and their 50,000 fucking pop-ups and flipped images) who not only have used the images that Nuriko scanned and fixed in their wallpapers, but don't even have the common courtesy to post a link on their website stating WHERE they got their images...


...Oh, but that's right... these people worked really really hard ripping of--- er, I mean "scanning" and getting these images for their original wallpapers, and the funniest thing is we've had dialogues with these ladies before.


Don't get me wrong, there are, albeit a honorable and honest few, who actually do have the balls, and the integrity, to post a link of our site on theirs, and some, like this fine lady (link opens new window) who not only put a link up but a button too!


So why do these people rip shit off and claim it as their own? Don't these people think someone is going to notice and call them on the carpet?...


What I think this boils down to, is these kids have been taught that it's okay to lie and to steal due to the fact that many of their parents (that's right, if you're one of these stupid fucks I think your parents are just as much of a fuck-up as your are), either directly as they lie and steal in their lives and jobs or indirectly but not punishing these kids for lying or stealing in their "non-Internet" lives. What makes it worse is the fact that because of the very anonymity that the Internet affords makes it easier for these people to undercut those who honestly contribute, claim it as their own and thereby short-change the process.


So what's the solution? I've already e-mailed, or in some cases, blogged (in the absence of an e-mail address) several sites telling them exactly what I think, but I know that this isn't going to be all that effective.


So here's what I'm discussing with Nuriko about:


Because of you content-stealing fucks out there, you're going to ruin it for everyone else:
Since we've already tried this for two-years now, with Nuriko doing it politely last year,... and my not-so-subtle approach this year. We are now in talks of dating and watermarking every new image scanned from now on, as well as adding watermarks to the current gallery...

...and I'm talking HUGE, UGLY and RIDICULOUS watermarks. These watermarks will run diagonally from corner to corner in HUGE print so that the images will no longer be usable
.

If that's not bad enough, how about this:

Currently, as a php/mysql programmer (not just php include() crap), we're also in talks to remove the gallery all together and make it an FTP, where only those with a username and a password will have access to download the images (which will also be watermarked). While downloads will be free, we'll have a full and complete list of ANYONE and EVERYONE who is downloading images, and will require you to post a valid e-mail AND website which will be verified before you are allowed to access the FTP. This way if the bullshit continues, we can simply shut all current accounts and require everyone to re-register.

And, if all else fails:
...we just close the gallery. Everyone at APA works way too hard to continually get the middle finger like this all the time.

...I think this is enough for now... interestingly enough I am already getting contacts from these other sites, so I'll post an update soon.

Moral for the day:
Don't be a bitch and just give us the same respect you yourself demand... and should deserve.

3-6-2003 On the line.

So as many of the loyal fans of AnimePA already know, I'm currently dating someone. He goes to college with me, but I won't get too much into that. I'm happy with the relationship.
It apparently all began a long time ago when he first met me, but he's just quiet and doesn't really let people know those things. He's been liking me since then and we only got together a few weeks after the whole John incident. Luckily, they're still friends and there are no hard feelings there. My parents love my current boyfriend very much and want to do anything they can to make this relationship work permanently. There's only a slight problem... his parents.
Not many people on the web know this unless they look in the Photo Album, but I'm in a wheelchair. I have a normal life like everybody else, it's just I have to get there differently. For some odd reason, his parents (mostly his mother) know this and I've already been judged, sentenced, and executed as a girl that would treat their son poorly. I just don't get it, but it hurts to know that there are still people out there in the world that judge people before they've met them.
Of course, so long as I am with him I will love them as well... but now I understand what so many other people have had to go through for hundreds of years.

12-24-2002 Usotsuki.

As I'm sure many people who have visited AnimeProjects.com have noticed, John and I broke up about three weeks ago. I tried my best to not make it an obvious or political thing, as that's simply not my style. However, I don't also have to appreciate the fact that some other people couldn't take the proverbial 'high road' in this matter, which brings me to the one place where I can truly express myself without having to worry about how anybody feels, the rants.
I don't generally consider myself a bitter woman. I've been through a lot, and I've learned much, so I don't really have a reason to be angry for something that was bound to happen so long as the events kept on escalating as much as they had. I'm not going into the personal details of the breakup, other than I was on the giving end and it has honestly hurt me more than it has him, as you can tell from the way he talks about me.
This rant is more about the differences between reality and anime, and how one's greed can inflict so much suffering that it almost inspires me to drop this whole website and let the kids fend for themselves.
While there were many things unhealthy about the relationship, the biggest chunk of the pain came from his need to own everything anime, to the point of not only disgusting his peers with his constant drawls about "Lain" and "Boogiepop" but to make the only woman that will deal with all of his problems give up and walk away. This is why there is an unwritten and unspoken law that two otaku in America never hook up: While anime may have brought them together, it will eventually rip them apart. John's need to have everything became the most important thing in his life. The nameless and faceless people that looked to his cry for attention in his desktops and homepage only fed his insane greed. At midnight every night he would stop everything and take my computer to see how many people visited his website that day... where they lived, the types of computers they used, what they liked the most. Then the snorkling sound that I came to love when he was happy became my telltale sign that I was once again the last priority and I would head off to bed again, lonely and heartbroken.
I never understood how he could go on hurting his friends and me because he was more important and timely than anything else.
Money was always a problem. Money is always a problem when trying to get items from Japan. Two problems don't make a solution. I would beg John to take me places... Los Angeles and Santa Monica to visit our friends in the anime import stores, to Mission Valley to visit our other friends at Rising Sun Creations, to the Asahiya Bookstore in the Mitsuwa Marketplace in Kearny Mesa... anywhere that I could feel close to him. I didn't even mind giving him money to buy anime. I know now that I enabled this to happen, but I don't regret it at all. I believed that if I helped him buy things he would somehow love me more every time he looked at these things I bought for him, and that the love I showed getting him these things he couldn't afford, and I really couldn't afford either. Instead, it was all a trophy, including me.
Every club meeting he would be kind enough to offer to drive me, and I still don't know if it was out of kindness or the fact that my cars are bigger than his so he could bring more of his things to show off. He brought his books of B3 posters, computer (not a laptop, but one of the deranged lamp-like iMacs named Cortana), boxes of things to scan, his bag of DVD's (just in case he didn't like what we were watching), and various other things that changed on a weekly basis. I usually had a small bag or two of anime to give out to the members or DVD's to watch that day. In total, he had to call people from the club to come down and help grab things out of the car to bring to the meeting, and it usually took 5 people, including himself. He would show up late, and only have a few hours left (which in anime terms, isn't large at all) and by the end of the meeting, complain that when I wanted to talk to him or ask him how his day was... I prevented him from doing God's work: Updating his website. Actually, it wasn't always updating his website... it changed on a weekly basis too. Sometimes he blamed me for his lack of website updates, the stacks of unscanned and "unprocessed" books and magazines in his room, the amount of hours he had to work in his job, as well as other menial things that I stopped writing down because I stopped caring. I consider this the first sign that anime just *might* be a problem here.
Not to skip around, but now that I've established a beginning to the pain, I might as well go in order of how I began noticing things. Next were the trips to LA and the money I spent. It started as a "Oh honey, you don't need to do this for me. Are you sure? Well, if you say so..." in the beginning to "I do plenty of things for you" a week before D-Day. It really hurt that his want for more items and character goods drowned any compassion and kindness in that big head of his. Every time we went to LA I began noticing that I would buy less and less yet the bill would get higher and higher. More of his things would end up on "my side" of the table that belonged to him and he would just go and "pay me back later". I should have noticed it then, but he hasn't paid me back jack in the 18 months we were together.
Heck, I even tried working with him on AnimeProjects.com to get close to him again. I love Saishuuheiki Kanojo... Chise is my personal Jesus. I would help him get to the official sites and check up on things so he always had the correct information and the fastest way of getting that information in America. He even asked me to help him write the character synopsis pages, but I couldn't do it the way he wanted me to, and so I was fired. With the exception of Onegai Teacher goods, I probably helped contribute or gave him 60% of the materials on that site so it wouldn't suck. What I couldn't get him, I made sure I hooked him up with a pal of mine over at USAnime.net so they could give him things that I could never get alone. I still had to remind him to give me credit on the links and credit pages when the site finally went up.
The final straw came on a day when I asked him to take me out on a date. He didn't have to pay for the tickets or brunch, he just had to be there for me. He decided to spend the previous day all the way until 6 AM on my day in LA to scan cels at the house of a girl that I don't even know. I was invited to go over there by one of her friends, but I respectfully declined the offer because she did not directly invite me and I didn't feel comfortable... it's just the way I was raised. I reminded him several times within the two weeks before this event what time to be at my house so we could leave in a timely manner, cause I don't like being late to semi-swanky events. He called me 45 minutes before we were about to leave to brag to me about the girl's house, and was angry because I didn't jump and down with glee. Then, I was accused of conspiracy theories so that he wouldn't have the time to go with me and how he was so looking forward to spending time with me. Had he just hung up the phone and drove down, he could have made it to my house in time to leave. Instead, he yelled at me for a half an hour straight telling me how terrible of a person I was because I didn't get thrilled about this girl and that I apparently didn't want him to go to this event. I had to put my makeup on all over again, put on my pretty face, and went without him... my mother decided to take me instead. In the last 5 minutes she took the phone out of my hands, told him to stop yelling at me and that if he stepped on my property that she would call the police... I was that afraid of my safety. That night I either had to end the relationship or write my will. I talked to several of my friends that took shifts to protect me just in case he came to the house wanting to settle something, and I put everything that was his into a giant box that my mother volunteered to drop off at his work so he wouldn't have a reason to see me.
So this is where I am now. It hurts, I would be lying if I said "I did it, and I'm glad". I am glad because I'm alive to tell about this, but a large portion of my emotional self wasn't ready to embrace the fact that anime was and is more important than I am. In fact, I think it's something that I doubt I will ever get over.

P.S. AnimeProjects.com is currently down because of bandwidth problems, but it should be up no later than the 1st.

Monday, March 07, 2005

10-9-2002:How many times has this happened to you,... or have you done this?

How many times has this happened to you,... or have you done this?
The Anime community by and large never ceases to amaze me simply in terms of the spectrum of people that are a part of it. Just about anyone you see on the street could be an Anime fan and you would never know it.

...that is except for a very special type of individual in the community.

So as mentioned before, Nuriko, Allen, John_7, Gary and myself were in the LA/Santa Monica are last Saturday visiting various Anime stores and Japanese bookstores when we came upon a little shop called Anime Jungle. While we were there, we were examining various objects of interest, including some laser discs, Figurines, you know the usual things fans look through. It was then we moved onto the large collection of poster books...

...and then he came along.

Before I go any further, I need to make it clear that I am not considered a "normal" Otaku by any shape or means. Anime does not dominate my life or bodily functions. Meaning I won't drop $2K into Anime related merchandise. In fact, I won't even drop $2 into something unless I really REALLY like it, which means it's either something from Hellsing or GTO, because those to me are the only series that I am willing to pay for... most of the time.

However, its not like I don't like Anime. Far from it, I grew up with Anime and enjoy its finer points just as anyone else. But I don't mind if a DVD isn't "official" or getting non-licensed Fan subs from newsgroups....

...well let me put it this way:

"Anything more than FREE is too expensive."

getting back to the point:

Oh yes. "...and then he came along."

For now, I will refer to him as "Fan Boy" simply because I don't know his name, nor do I care. However, if I did know his name I would post his name because I was that annoyed. To hell with anonymity I say. And if you have a problem with this rant, you can e-mail me anytime and I will be more than happy to have a friendly dialogue with you about why I posted this rant.

...So the four of us are looking through the various Anime posters when "Fan Boy" approaches from our 9 o'clock. After assessing the situation and his targets, he immediately begins to execute his battle plan that to him is as natural and instinctive as me visually undressing a pretty woman on the street with my eyes.

(John_7 flips the poster page....)
Fan Boy: "Oh yeah, that's Eva. Great Series."

Of course I wouldn't know what the hell EVA was...
(John_7 flips to the next poster...)
John_7: "Hey Pen, do you have thi-"
Fan Boy: "Hey! That's Di Gi-Charat. I highly recommend that series, a bit goofy though."
Really? No fucking shit. Maybe that's why John was asking Penny if they had the poster.
(John_7 flips to the next poster page....)
Fan Boy: "That's a horrible poster! I also couldn't believe the ending of {insert series here... I forget of the top of my head}. I was so disappointed."

Are we noticing a pattern? Basically we had to sit there and listen to basically this guy's stupid-ass take on EVERY single poster and related Anime series while we went through about 5 books that contained 15 - 30 posters a piece. By the end of the "experience" I was ready to put him out of our misery.

...and as if it weren't enough...

Nuriko's favorite Disney Animated movie is Oliver & Company, and has wanted a movie poster for it for a while. Anime Jungle just HAPPENS to have one this time. So Nuriko wants to get it for her own collection. it is at this time that Fan Boy proceeds to tell Nuriko how horrible Oliver & Co. is because it is not Anime. Not only that, but tries to convince Nuriko not to spend her money on, "...that abomination of a poster."

It's not his money, so why in the blue flying FUCK does he care? The amount of arrogance that is required to stand there in front of someone with a straight face and basically say, "You're a dumb ass for wanting this because I think its garbage," is simply mind numbing.

...So let's pause for a moment and poll amongst ourselves:

How many of you have had to deal with this? Now I know everyone likes to show how big their respective Anime "Nuts" are by doing trivia-offs, inserting various Anime references into conversation, and other pseudo-intellectual word and association games that are commonplace amongst the members of our breed, but generally these inside jokes and battles should be just that; inside.

Of course, this could just be me. Again, since Anime does not dictate my life's comings and goings, this could just be something that annoys the "non-true" Otaku. However, after speaking with the rest of the group, they seemed just as irritates as I was, except that since they go to these stores a heck of a lot more than I ever will, seem to have come to expect it as part of the territory.

So that being said, I understand that this could just be my own idiosyncratic neurosis that I will dub, "hyperfanboitis." Now when someone annoys you when they're rambling on like a boat motor with no kill switch you can say, "Looks like my hyperfanboitis is flaring up again!"

Now more importantly, How many of YOU (Yes you, I see you reading the page... you smug bastard, you.) have done the very same annoying, "Give me respect for my ability to answer the questions you never asked," super abilities that can turn any mild mannered human being into an annoyed, blood-lusting monster whose sole purpose of being involves at least one of the following:

  1. Getting as far away from your physical location as soon as possible.


  2. Showing no decency by desecrating your bedraggled corpse.


  3. Calling HAZMAT to alert them that a level 2 biohazard is spewing toxic fumes that is making everyone in the immediate vicinity nauseous.


What makes all of this foulness infinitely compounded is that all 5 of us gave "Fan Boy" immediate, yet polite clues that his commentary was not necessary. Nuriko even asked him, "Do you work here," only for him to reply that indeed he did NOT, and was just looking like we were.


...apparently my knowledge of the human body was entirely incorrect, for I was under the impression that the sense of vision involved the use of one's eyes, not their mouth. I'd personally like to thank Fan Boy, and all the other "Fan Boy's" out there that make it a point to do the very same thing to others for bringing this error to my attention.

So let me bring this rant to the punch line:

Unless you're asked for an opinion by someone you don't know in the your local Anime shop,...
...keep your mouth shut and don't give it until you are.


...granted, there's going to be times where showing off that big penis of yours called "knowledge" is going to handy, even appropriate, but most of the times you're just using up the air and everyone else stopped listening 10 minutes ago.

-- The Celestrian

10-8-2002 With the exception of anime stores, Los Angeles is a hole.

Here's the setting: Five of us went to LA on Saturday because we got paid and if you know us, you know money doesn't like to stay in our wallets :)
I've gone to LA to visit anime stores one other time... and that time an LAPD cruiser parked so I couldn't get in my van! I was so pissed off I wanted to call the LAPD and give them a piece of MY mind, but John wouldn't let me. He said that if I called to complain that the LAPD would tag and beat the crap out of me... in which I reminded him they wouldn't, because I'm not black. I just left it alone and just understood that they aren't the brightest of the blue. So, I'm not going to include this experience in my rant... because I'd be biased.
When we went this time, I was a little less naive and tried to be more aware of my surroundings. Then, the homeless came out and started asking for money. At least they didn't ask me, but I felt bad enough that they asked one of my friends... and the both of us really care kind-hearted people and we don't need that kind of guilt in our lives. The first guy that approached us was very kind, and I didn't have a problem with him at all... he was genuinely curious as to why a bunch of us were driving to LA... so I wasn't too upset. After our day of shopping, another guy came and followed us from the shopping center to our car begging the same friend of mine for money for food. It really was unnerving. He told the guy he didn't have any money left.. but because he felt bad about not doing something he decided to give the man some Japanese food that we got from the market just before we left. The guy was INSULTED and called it junk and was mad that my friend didn't give him money! I can understand someone having a hard time and needing food, but if you're going to use that as your line to get money to buy crack or alcohol or whatever you need your fix on, be happy you're getting something.
The worst part about this is, I really want to live in LA. Most of the people there are very nice, but it's the other people on the opposing ends of the spectrum that keep many people from visiting or even moving there. We weren't even in a 'bad part of town' and we were all very uncomfortable. I think if Los Angeles wants more tourism and less crap, do something about the social environment. As soon as those anime stores move to a better place, I can promise I won't go to Los Angeles nearly as often and I will now.

9-14-2002 Is it REALLY that hard to give credit where credit is due?

So I'm browsing the internet and stuff looking for some wallpapers to put on my computer... just cause I have a huge gallery doesn't mean I don't like to look at other people's stuff to put on the back of my laptop.. it's inspiration, really. I go to AnimeBGX and take a look at their selection because it was highly recommended and I see a wallpaper of the gates from the Ah My Goddess Movie (the SAME picture I was emailed with tons of times to clean up and scan and put in the gallery for people to look at and was requested individually by SEVERAL people). Now, I did put the gallery up for people to look at and use if they wanted to make a website design or something using them, but don't fuggin take something that is so well known and pretend like I didn't spend hours cleaning that crinkled and messed poster up to make YOUR wallpaper making go faster. What really REALLY got me about this is the little disclaimer at the bottom of the image saying "don't take this... blah blah" when they did it themselves. I hate hypocrisy.
Another website that pissed me off is Anime Castle. This one was brought to my attention by several of our loyal fans who noticed that not only were a lot of images they used in their wallpapers could have come from this page, but that on their Nadesico contest section they blatantly took our scans and acted like they ripped up their art book and scanned and cleaned up and marked the images so if they were ever taken I'd know about it.... another of the websites having the "disclaimer" crap
**Follow-up note**
Apparently some people heard about this rant and did some changes. Thanks to all the people who helped!

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Welcoming

Arigato & Welcome~!